My life

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 02:01:12 GMT

its getting closer and closer to graduation !!!!!

I'm excited and scared all at the same time.

Halloween is closer tho so lets focuses on that. I'm going to be a pirate ..... a sophisticated pirate to be exact =) I

'm having a little trouble with physics so I have to get a tutor... there is no way in hell I'm going to let a bad grade in Physics stop me from graduating.

I'm planning on moving in with my brother when I get out of here, and then find a job, and get settled I haven't decided if I'm going to go back to school after a year break or not... I

know I shouldn't take a break at all because the chances of me starting school again are next to nothing, but I can't handle school for much longer. I'm ready to start my life.

Any advice?

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 08:29:17 GMT

ugh sooooooooooooooooooooo Tired................................

But I can't sleep.......... WHY?~?!?!?!?!

Things to come

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 13:43:27 GMT

Ugh its hard to find time to go home.... Goodness, I've tried like 3 different weekends, I've only been home once since school started. I think I'm getting a little home sick, its so weird bc this is my last year and I still get home sick when I'm gone for a small amount of time. Ehh I always thought I would get the hell out of Gastonia but it looks like as long as my family is there that I will always come back.

School is going well, Classes are a little too simple for my tastes but hey I wanted a simple last year. I don’t think people would think that Bio Chem, Physics, Calculus, Developmental Psy. and a lit course would be easy but so far not a lot of challenge. I do have to do an internship at a clinic pretty soon tho.... hmmm.....

Anyway, my wrist is fine, and it is true that your bones ach when it rains after an injury. The scare is looking pretty nice tho. My health is pretty good (knock on wood) and I hope that I don't get sick this year, living in a dorm can be dangerous bc if one person gets sick then everyone is sick. I'm a little nerves about the what’s to come but I'm sure that everything will fall into place.

How is everyone else?

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 15:03:31 GMT

busy day busy day, finally got my email fixed.... well kinda fixed, now i just have to figure out how to work it..... hmmm

Forever!!!!!

Mon, 01 Sep 2008 15:23:43 GMT

Wow

I haven't updated this thing in a while, but as I’ve said before this site is more of a way to vent or say what is on my mind so I don't have to keep thinking it. I've started school again. Classes are hard and my main goal is to graduate on time =) I think that I will graduate.

I had plans after college to move in with a friend but that kinda blew up in my face. Now I'm looking for a new roommate to move in with. I don't want to stay at home forever even if my mom said that she wants me to.

Has anyone lost touch with a really important person in there life that they thought was going to be with them forever? I have and it sucks. Its mostly my falt too, but I feel like such a 3rd wheel bc she wont do a lot with out her bf, and will only "hang-out" when he is working... I have other friends but I miss hanging out with her.

What are peoples plans for fall break? I need something to do. I thought about camping with a bunch of my guy friends lol, they invited me but Im not really a camping kinda girl. I like my internet..... and my indoor pluming. However the alcohol and great memories to be had is a little more than tempting lol.

I broke my wrist 3 weeks ago. I've broken my leg b4 but this felt different, I think I have a high tolerance for pain bc I didn't even notice I broke it until I got back up on the horse and then blacked out. I was doing barrels and the horse started to act up. It was muddy outside and she aka the horse fell forward taking me with her. She got up and started eating grass, I got up cursing and telling her I was taking her to the glue factory.... the only thing I thought was hurt was my pride... bc I never fall off, and there were a lot of people there to see me do it, but I got up grabbed the saddle pulled myself back into the saddle and then passed bc I felt the large amount of pain that came with the movement. I have a killer scare to show for it and a pretty good story to share.

I still look the same since high school... ok maybe I've put on a couple pounds lol but actually i still pretty much look the same. I worked at a ranch over the summer, got into barrel racing and teaching classes on how to ride. I'm still going for large animal vet, and I'm going to graduate with my bs in sic. and biology so if i change my mind in the next year I wont have to take extra classes to be too far off the mark. I'm 21!!! lol drinking however has lost some of the appeal that it once had. However clubbing has not. I love to go and dance still. Well I think that I've gone on enough about myself. Is anyone still on? Tell me what’s going on in your life if you are =)

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 13:46:35 GMT

This RA thing is pretty stressful... but its kinda fun at the same time

How is everyone? I don't know how many people update on this anymore... I've always like to write down my thoughts when I'm upset or just excited about someone.

My dorm room is right over the laundry room and last night I could not figure out why my room smelled like rotten ass, one of my friends said it was hot in my room to. Later that night my room started to smell really good and I finally realized that someone was washing clothes that smelled like ass and the smell carried up though the vents to my room. That was the first time that it had ever happened.

Well I have class pretty soon so I'm out.

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 02:41:18 GMT

hmmm well I'm still here

Just thought that I would post... something... =)

But I'm too tired to write something long so School is good, home is bad and I left my calculus book there ugh

G'night =)

Fri, 24 Aug 2007 05:13:13 GMT

Man I haven't been on LJ in forever

It seems that I have left LJ for Face book and Myspace... hmm

I've never really kept up a journal anyway.

I'm now in my Jr. Year of college, and it seems that I've changed some. In high school I was the quite nice one, now I'm the loud girl who has to let everyone know where she stands.

My personal beliefs haven't changed.
I'm still waiting for a guy to knock me off my feet, but until that happens life goes on as normal.

I'm now a RA in Avery. It has nice points and bad ones, but I'm sticking with it because it pays for a lot of my college.

I've become a bit of a partier.... well more than normal, I like going out to the bars and talking with people that I've never seen before
I'm in tight with the bouncer and had to ask for his assistance once or twice. (Be safe or be sorry)

A lot of my close friends aren’t up here anymore, so I'm pretty lonely. I have friends but it is not the same as having my Close friends here.

This year has just started, so we shall see how it goes.

-Jamie

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 21:01:17 GMT

I know ppl tell me that it isn't a big deal
but to me it is,
and I'm scared.

You guys are brave
but I can't seem to help thinking of everything that could go wrong
or how I would feel if the worst possible thing would happen....

Everyone else gets through it and come out none the worse for wear
I have a lot of mixed feelings
I'm Nervous, scared, and excited all at the same time

Just an update

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 07:19:16 GMT

Well this has been an interesting year to say the least

I have a lot of great memories, and I'm looking forward to making new ones

I have a good feeling about this year

Michael is leaving to go back up to App tomorrow... it sucks bc I'm not going to see him for almost 2 weeks... I miss him already and he just left my house.

I might have to make a special drive up there just for him; I guess it will be good to go back up to college to have my privacy once again.

I finally got to see Miss Sarah Lipka again, I've missed her.

I hope everyone had a happy New Years, I know I did =)

Nice time

Sat, 23 Dec 2006 04:42:17 GMT

This week has been pretty cool. Got drunk with Sarah Jessica brannon and his brother

FIrst time I've been drunk with sarah.... we ended up taking off most out our clothes and running down the street.. Thank God it was 3 in the morning and everyone was in bed

also I called michael while I was drunk... he save the damn message.. goodness no one needs to have a phone when they are drunk

Last wed. Jessica, Sarah, Me, Michael, Dustin, Parker, and patrick went to the club... and after all the warnings that we gave the silly boys about their shoes Parker, and Patrick couldn't get in. I felt bad but I was not going home bc they didn't listen to us, so they found a ride home with someone else. The rest of us went in and had a great time!

Then I got a lil cold... stupid brother gave it to me.

I hope everyone has a great Christmas!

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 16:43:02 GMT

Last night was a blast!
Jessica is great!
I'm going to my aunts today in Charlotte, one to get Michaels present and the other to go to my favorite restaurant
Hope everyone is having a great break!

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 16:55:24 GMT

Chem is done with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!! I'M SO HAPPY
I'm actually crying a little lol

Sun, 10 Dec 2006 20:11:39 GMT

Finals are tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well 2 of them are anyways
the dreaded Chem final... I've studied for that for 2 days straight
and the US History pushover =) I don't even have to really study for that one

Tuesday... is the Anatomy/ Phy final... I'm sorta ready for that one

I should be stressed out... and I'm a little scared because I'm not, my face isn't broke out, I'm not bitching about it every min. but I am studying my ass off. Maybe I found a balance and didn't know about it.

I'm coming back wed. and I'm going out clubbing that night!!!!! If anyone else would like to come just let me know! Jessica is coming with me, we both have wanted to go out, and this will be a kind of celebration. One semester down and the next to go!!! I'll be relieved to get this over with. Plus we get in for free b/4 12 bc its girls night!!

I have to work in the library tonight from 4-11pm this will give me some more study time with other ppl.
I hate that chem class and shall finally be done with it TOMORROW!!!!!!!! Wish me luck everyone bc I have no idea how I'll do.

I went for a run today... I haven't done that in a while.. I thought I was going to see my breakfast again.. but I did well and finished my 2 and 1/2 mile run... and I only stoped once lol, I am going to sleep well tonight!

Good luck with your finals!!!

It's almost over!

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 18:04:35 GMT

OK so here is how everything is working out:

Math final on Sat. 8-10 am
Chem final on Monday 8-10 am
History final on Monday 1-3 pm
A/P final on Tus. 8-10 am
and I don't have a final for my Education class

I have to get a B at the lowest on my Chem. final... I don't think that is going to happen but I'm going to work my ass off for it!

Everything else I'm a lil worried about but I'm just glade that it is almost over

I'm leaving Wed. bc I have to take someone to the airport, otherwise I would go down and stay with Michael for a night
I'll be out of school until..... the ..... 11th of Jan. I think. So I'll be out for almost a month.

Then new classes start up!!!

Jessica came up this weekend, I was really happy to have her here, I've missed her... Damn 2 hrs.
I got several Drunken phone calls/Text messages I guess last weekend was the weekend that everyone got drunk.. kinda wished that I could have joined them, but I was the DD... ehh oh well there is always next time

I've been thinking a lot about soccer and playing next year... I want to bc I've played soccer since I was 3 and I figured I would for all of my years at college, but coach is again proving what a bitch she is, and how unreasonable she can be, and I just don't need the extra stress with dealing with her. So now I have to find something else to do.

I'm talking to Crystal F. she heads the group Blazing Saddles, I'm pretty sure that I'm going to work with the horse on that farm and ride/work them out for her. That way I'll still have a workout and I'll be doing something that I love.

I think that Ian is going to be doing it too, after soccer ofcorse but I found out that he is a pretty good rider.. Who knew that someone from England could ride western =)

Well this week is the studying week so I'm off to get as much as I can done. Good luck to everyone on their finals!
<3

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 15:18:23 GMT

It’s rainy out again... I like the rain but only if i can sleep in.

I'm sooo sick of this semester, I just want to get through it and then start next.

Next semester I have a lot of fun classes that I'm excited to take like Animal Behavior, and Animal Nutrition. I'm not so excited about Lab Investigations but ehh what can you do? =)

b4 I go to NC State I may have to take a year off of school so that I can relax and get my mind set on my goal again. I don't think anyone can go through 4 years of college, and then go for another 6 or so years in another school, without taking a break somewhere.

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There can be no Love without friendship
no friendship without confidence,
and no confidence without integrity.
-Samuel Johnson-

This made me think of you, but I've done enough thinking
its time for you to think a little

love It should be entered into with abandon or not at all.

Nice

Mon, 06 Nov 2006 00:17:43 GMT

I had the best weekend!!

Dancing always makes me feel great! It never fails, plus everyone asking for my number made it all the more enjoyable.I really needed this weekend. Thanks to the lovely Rebecca for getting my ass out of the house and in to one of her shirts and out to the club. I think it was club Forum... or something like that, its right next to Bar Charlotte.

Friday. I went over to becca's house to watch some movies, drink some wine, and take a nice relaxing dip in the Hot tub.

Saturday. I drove to Becca's house again only to switch to her car (she knows Charlotte better than I do) and head over to Queens to pick up some clubbing clothes. I didn't bring anything with me down from school to actually go clubing in, so becca let me wear a shirt. I'm surprised that I actually fit in to her shirt.. well the second one I fit into, the first was too small.

We weren't really all that dressed up but we got hit on like we were.
Forum has a dress policy.. No athletic shoes or clothing, no filp-flops.. so on and so on
and it was 21 and up night...

but with all the odds against us we got in wearing flip flops and being under 21
it's a nice place, and it's bigger than Bar Charlotte

just one incident that I wasn't all that happy about happened, but it is easily forgotten.

I miss my Jessica and I hope I get to see her soon!

Thanks again becca!
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I really hope that you don't think that I am that stupid
I know what goes on around me, and even if you don't let me know
someone else will, or I'll figure it out.
I know you too well for you to get away with shit like that.
You have guts... but trying to fool me isn't going to work,
and it only makes things worse

xxooXOXOxxoo (lil kiss, lil kiss, lil hug, lil hug, Big kiss, Big hug, Big Kiss, Big Hug, lil kiss, lil kiss, lil hug, lil hug)

I love Personality test

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 16:56:38 GMT

You Are A Maple Tree

There's not anyone in this world quite like you.
You are full of imagination, ambition, and originality.
Shy but confident, you hunger for new experiences.
You have a good memory and learn easily.
You are sometimes nervous and always complex (especially in love).

What's Your Celtic Horoscope?

I do this things to find out a little about myself... even though they are usually crap =)

well I've been home for 2 days and I've just heard that my parents are thinking about getting a divorce... again.. and mom is serious... ugh.. this really sucks, I hate taking sides when my parents fight, but it seems that I'm thrown in the middle.

This just hasn't been my year.

I just want to get drunk... again
but I don't mostly bc I don't want to drink by myself or with just one other person. I want a party environment.

I was told that I spread myself too thin... I don't know if that is true.. but it makes since.

This summer I'm going to get a job, and maybe take a Chemistry class at Gaston, but one of my goals for this summer is to relax and to have as much fun as I can. Which means no sitting around getting fat.

Everyone is taking trips this summer, Well I'm going to be stuck here saving money so that NEXT summer I can go on a trip.

I'm thinking California, I might stay with my uncle for a week or two. I am also thinking that I should Drive to California and just take a month vacation. I don't think I'm going to have to do much convincing but I'm going to ask Jessica to come with me.

What fun would that be if I went by myself, I'm probably going to ask some other people to come along... maybe just two more but we'll have to see.

I want memories, fun and exciting memories. I'm not going to just go to school and then settle down somewhere close to home and just be half continent with my life. I don't want regrets and to be going through what my mom is going through. I see her and then I look at myself, and we are so much a like that it scares me...

not bc she is a bad person or anything, she just has regrets of what she should have done but didn't.. I don't want that to happen to me.

I want to travel and see some of the world. I know people say that all the time, but I'm not just going to wish, its going to happen.

Well I'm going to get off b4 I start asking some philosophical questions

.... hmmm

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 00:19:39 GMT

Your Unique Costume is a Wardrobe Malfunction

Cause a scene!

What Totally Unique Halloween Costume Should You Wear?

Paaahahahahahahaahah.....

It is funny bc I really should wear that =)

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 00:06:43 GMT

I think I'm killer of Technology... I'm not really sure why
but I've broken my laptop, my cell phone and the motor in my automatic window in my car, on the drivers side the motor has died sooooo it wont roll up... ohh well

Hopefully my laptop will be fixed pretty soon, I had to come home and get the paperwork and that kinda stuff but it should be fixed.

I'm going out with Jessica and some friends tonight to watch Saw III, hmm maybe I'll get branon to buy me some beer. =) Its been a while since I've had a beer with a lot of pple around. I want to get wasted, and I'm pretty sure that Jessica will help with that, I love her =) well I'm off.

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 19:25:57 GMT

Your Dating Purity Score: 76%

You are an under-experienced dater.
This doesn't mean you're unexperienced - far from it.
It just means that there's a lot of romance left to discover!

Dating Purity Test

hmmmm I guess I have a lot to learn huh?

Everything in the open

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 04:02:16 GMT

I found my cell phone

I never really lost it; it was just stuck in my bag.

Have you ever been lied to by someone you love?
Not just a family member, I mean a boyfriend or a girlfriend.

Well I did. It happened today, I gave that person several chances to come clean, and each and every time I was lied to. I finally just said that I know what you did and I gave you several chances to come clean and you basically lied to my face.

God it hurt so bad.

I think this was the first time I ever cried over a guy. Now I can't trust him, and it kills me

I have a headache and I'm dehydrated.

Not really planning to sleep well but I'm going to try. G'night

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 23:47:05 GMT

ohh yea and I lost my cell phone

so if you could please send me your number...
if you want me to have it again
to my email adress JPStarlet@aol.com then that would be great thanks

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 23:40:36 GMT

Hmmm
Well found my brother. Mom picked him up when he was getting his check. It was a very long weekend, I was going to go to Carowinds but they had some special event going on so that was blown all to hell. Instead I went with Jessica to see Jackass 2. It was funny/gross lol, but the best part of the evening was when we came back to my house. My mom and her friend sherry had a little party going on and had been drinking for a while.

I forgot my keys and I was just going to tap on the window and get them to let us in. Well the window is taller than I am so all they saw was a hand.... so sherry screams... I dunk down and start to laugh and figured it would be pretty sweet to mess with them some more... so I went to the other side of the room and looked in the window.. it was open and they had taken off into the living room, taking down a chair and a trash can on their way lol. Jessica and I couldn't stop laughing lmao. With the window still open I thought about going in it and decided I better not, so I just tossed Jessica’s keys inside instead. The keys made a loud noise and mom and sherry screamed again.... and sent kris (My lil sis) in to close the window bc they thought someone was breaking in, by this time Jessica and I almost peed on our selves bc we were laughing so hard, so we decided to just go up to the door and go in. lol

lol it was the best time ever! I wish we could have recorded it. That put a smile on my face for the rest of the night and next day.

Well I would like to say thanks to all the well wishers. Like I said b/4 you guys rock!

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 02:34:44 GMT

I always seem to write when I have bad news or when my life isn't going as planed. I guess this is a way to help me cope with what is going on.

People have always said that I'm a strong person, that I'm always so happy and carefree and that I act ditzy sometimes.

I'm not sure about being a strong person, but I can tell you that I have grown this year.

For those of you that don't know my dad had a blood clot that went through his heart and stopped in his lung. The doctors said that there is no medical reason that he should be a live, but for some reason God didn't take him.

Now last night my brother disappeared. He left track practice with a friend and ran away from home. He ran from his responsibilities from his family from all of his problems.

I can't tell you how many times I wanted to say "fuck it" and just take off. I'm not really sure why I haven't. Maybe I am a strong person, and face the responsibilities of my actions with my head healed high. Maybe I'm just stubborn and won't back down from a challenge, or maybe I'm just stupid and I don't know when I've lost and to give up. Whatever the reason is my brother doesn't seem to see it the way I do.

I've been thinking a lot about my life lately, and I'm kind of shocked at where I'm at and how I feel about it.

I love college, but I hate some of the classes.

Despite how I say that I don't give up I can't tell you how many times that I've thought about it.
-Soccer
-Chemistry
-This school
-Being a vet

All of these things have been debated on and so far I've decided stick with it, but do I really want to reach/keep these goals that make me unhappy?
Am I unhappy? About something’s yes, but I have a great family, and even better friends that keep me going.

If I didn't have the people surrounding me that I do then my life would be completely different than it is now. I have a lot of friends, but few close ones.

I would just like to say thank you for being there for me and for talking or listening to me when I needed someone to do that.

I would not be the strong, happy, stubborn person that I am today with out you guys (you know who you are).

I said earlier that my brother ran away. So I would like some help in looking for him. I don't mean drive around looking for him I mean keeping an eye out for him.
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Thanks guys. Hope everything is great with you!
-Jamie